while everyone’s reflecting on their year
this year i left a long term relationship, that i probably shouldn’t have left at the time, and actually worked on.
and in turn i hurt someone i deeply cared about
as a result of this that person was sexual assault and r*ped one night, moments after i saw them
months later another friend, who had a previous suidice attempt while i was the only person around, decided to take their own life
weeks ago someone who i’ve been become very close with this year attempted to also take their own life
this year has been more traumatic than any other
next year i want to be more open, and understanding, i wanna talk to other people more about situations that are happening
being closed off and indecisive this year has had some of the most awful consequences and i can’t let that happen again
i dont wanna take anymore xanax tonight because im just gonna spiral for weeks again
jfc i dont even remember writing this
i dont wanna take anymore xanax tonight because im just gonna spiral for weeks again
my friend and ex housemate ended his life on saturday morning, and i cant stop thinking about how nearly exactly a year ago he made an attempt and i was the only one home and how i spent hours with him trying to fill him with positive outlooks and other options.
got flaked on for a date tonight, and i’m not even into this girl that much, but it’s fuckin made me spiral out into a stupid self loathing manic episode (like i fuckin knew it would)